Healing Homebirth

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Friday, January 25, 2008

So it begins...

I've reached a new leg of this already lengthy journey and feel it's time to move onwards and upwards to a better place. I've no intention of forgetting the past, these things make me who I am today. I've learnt and grown, made mistakes and owned up to them. I am on a quest to rediscover my self and the wild woman within!

It is here I am going to release my intentions, fears, questions and share with those who are watching from the side my third but first unassisted pregnancy and path to the freebirth of my third child.

I've got a lot of healing to do yet from my first two births before I can birth the way I want/need and deserve to birth my next child. My first birth resulted in unnecessary surgery and the second was a "failed vbac" so also ended in unnecessary surgery.

I have learnt from my mistakes and although parts of me own those feelings there is a mass industry in childbirth that has a lot to answer for. The way women are undermined and undervalued, their pregnancies and births are taken from them.

So it's for many complex reasons that I've made a conscious and valid decision to treat my pregnancy and birth as it should be treated. In fact I don't like that word 'treated'. My pregnancy will progress as it should. My body knows how to grow my baby perfectly. No one needs to examine me or measure me, or look at my unborn baby.

As written in 'Women Who Run With The Wolves' by Clarissa Pinkola Estes

"With wild woman as ally, as leader, model, teacher, we see, not through two eyes, but through the eyes of intuition which is many eyed. When we assert intuition we are therefore like the starry night: we gaze at the world through a thousand eyes."
I am a woman and I will unearth the wild woman within me as I grow and learn.